Let the journey begin

Well I almost thought today was going to be a great day man was I wrong . Thank god for a new year in one month . I found out yesterday that the guy I was seeing was also seeing someone else don't figure . Seen's how he's the one that said he didn't want a relationship or someone in his life . Because of being scared not sure of who to trust blablabla .... Easy man's way OUT! Well I say its times for a new journey a new me . I found myself once and now thanks to tons of turn down's and macho men its time to find the real me again . Its time for the 30 day's of new looks and weight to come off once again . I see the light at the end of every tunnel its just the guys that don't . I'm tired of playing men's little mind games of yes I want a relationship and oh wait can I call you tomorrow ? And that call never comes I'm tired of tomorrow and dreams that never come true . Its time to start working again at finding me the real me . I'm looking into going away for a while and desiding what to do with my life . I know I want to do deliveries and drive I hate being in this house all the time . But I also hate being alone but I guess men would rather be alone in life . Maybe thats why only a few have feelings . The others are to macho to admit when they really care for someone . Or want to be with someone . Me I say you'll wake up and reliz what you had next time you see me I won't look the same next time . But next time open your eyes and see whats right there in front of you .