2 am in the Morning

Well its my journey so here goes nothing .... Its 2 am I have started this blog about 3 times tonight now . A while back I agreed to loose weight and get into shape . Its been a long hard road but I'm pushing  to meet my goals . In April I hurt my knee and I have not been able to work out like I used to I was told that I may need a new knee in a few months . But I guess you live and learn . Anyway I am geting back into working out slowly I bought a new weight machine and tread mill and I still have my bike and my mountain bike is in the shed . So I have not and will not give up this fight to be ME . I have learned that to be with the jock you have to become a jock well I was not one in school and always ended up alone not anymore I am giving it my all to be the best I can be and SCREW the man that thinks I'm not good enough for him .. I am better inside and out then any barbie doll cheerleader ever will be . You will not catch one of them sitting out in the woods in the middle of winter . But I would if it made my man happy . One of my goals is to please the man in my life and to make sure that he stays happy every day of his life granted I have to find that man that has the balls to stand up and be with me instead of geting scared off when things start to get close I don't want someone to live with just someone to be with and talk to I won't live with a man again or get married they are just not on the top of my list of things to do any time soon and should god deside to take me before I change my mind so be it I don't care . I am tired of being hurt by men and there little mind games and teasing you and telling you that your hot or they want a relationship when deep down they don't want wanything to do with you other than SEX . GROW THE HE** up people . Well I guess this is enough for now I will right more tomorrow of my boring journey in life ..