WOW Snow

Well another winter's day . Its so pretty to watch the new snow fall . I love to take pictures of it . And now with this much snow I can make snow angel's . I got my shovel all warmed up and ready for my hand when this snow stop's . Its a great workout to be out doing the shoveling and I love to do it . I was told last month that I may not be running for a while again this really sucks . Seen's how I was just starting to get back into it . I fell and hurt my knee back in April bruised it half way threw . Doctor says its heeling good but in a few months you may need a new knee . GREAT ! Thanks to a job I no longer seem to do my life has to change 100%  . I am geting into this new show and I've done most of my home work to get myself started in the job they do . I still have a lot of things to get before I can go out on my own but like a niece of mine its my goal a passion I love to do so I'm pushing forward and making it happen . I will have my own business soon enough no one will tell me I can't do this if it means getting a loan and buying my own truck I will do it . I was told once there is nothing you can't do if you put your mind to it and god knows when I do I get things done . So I have put my mind into geting the things I want to do done and it feels GREAT to finally say I'm doing it . So never EVER give up on your dreams do something more every day to make them come true .. Good luck !!

2 am in the Morning

Well its my journey so here goes nothing .... Its 2 am I have started this blog about 3 times tonight now . A while back I agreed to loose weight and get into shape . Its been a long hard road but I'm pushing  to meet my goals . In April I hurt my knee and I have not been able to work out like I used to I was told that I may need a new knee in a few months . But I guess you live and learn . Anyway I am geting back into working out slowly I bought a new weight machine and tread mill and I still have my bike and my mountain bike is in the shed . So I have not and will not give up this fight to be ME . I have learned that to be with the jock you have to become a jock well I was not one in school and always ended up alone not anymore I am giving it my all to be the best I can be and SCREW the man that thinks I'm not good enough for him .. I am better inside and out then any barbie doll cheerleader ever will be . You will not catch one of them sitting out in the woods in the middle of winter . But I would if it made my man happy . One of my goals is to please the man in my life and to make sure that he stays happy every day of his life granted I have to find that man that has the balls to stand up and be with me instead of geting scared off when things start to get close I don't want someone to live with just someone to be with and talk to I won't live with a man again or get married they are just not on the top of my list of things to do any time soon and should god deside to take me before I change my mind so be it I don't care . I am tired of being hurt by men and there little mind games and teasing you and telling you that your hot or they want a relationship when deep down they don't want wanything to do with you other than SEX . GROW THE HE** up people . Well I guess this is enough for now I will right more tomorrow of my boring journey in life ..

Let the journey begin

Well I almost thought today was going to be a great day man was I wrong . Thank god for a new year in one month . I found out yesterday that the guy I was seeing was also seeing someone else don't figure . Seen's how he's the one that said he didn't want a relationship or someone in his life . Because of being scared not sure of who to trust blablabla .... Easy man's way OUT! Well I say its times for a new journey a new me . I found myself once and now thanks to tons of turn down's and macho men its time to find the real me again . Its time for the 30 day's of new looks and weight to come off once again . I see the light at the end of every tunnel its just the guys that don't . I'm tired of playing men's little mind games of yes I want a relationship and oh wait can I call you tomorrow ? And that call never comes I'm tired of tomorrow and dreams that never come true . Its time to start working again at finding me the real me . I'm looking into going away for a while and desiding what to do with my life . I know I want to do deliveries and drive I hate being in this house all the time . But I also hate being alone but I guess men would rather be alone in life . Maybe thats why only a few have feelings . The others are to macho to admit when they really care for someone . Or want to be with someone . Me I say you'll wake up and reliz what you had next time you see me I won't look the same next time . But next time open your eyes and see whats right there in front of you .