2016 January

Well so begins the journey , Its 12:00 noon and its a total high of -4 outside . yes its very cold out but my dog loves the weather . So beings the journey of the new me for 2016 . I have decided to go to the expensive stores and take pictures of the out fits I like and then head out on my journey to find them in a cheaper version . Something I can afford that is . Some people seem to think that the expensive side of life is so much better but is it really if you can do it cheaper ? Why would you want to spend 30 or more dollars on an outfit when you can make the same thing cheaper and help out other stores ? I have found stores like Good Will and Thrift Shop's have almost the same things only cheaper . So unlike others I choose to go there and do my shopping . One reason because it helps the store and the other because I believe I can do this cheaper version of the higher class close line . Who dare's to try with me well unless you drop me a line I guess your on your own as for me I have started but I can not down load pictures till I have my hole wardrobe filled how I would like it . Well I know its been a while since I've wrote anything here but that's because my laptop has taken a poop. But when I can I will be back with more to follow so leave me your idea's on this thought and see what we can come up with together ok ?

working for the weekend

Well Fran's pig pen is finally cleaned enough that I won't have much to do once I get to stay at the house that is . I found out that he maybe having another woman plus Lori and I there . I don't care but if I get up and that house is a mess the bitch will be out . And Lori know's enough to let me sleep or shit hits the fan . today I got alot done I worked on the living room while lori did the little bed room put up the spare bed and vaccuumed and dusted . It at least looked clean the kitchen on the other hand not so much I ended up doing a few toouch ups to make it to my standards anyway . I guess I've been hanging around Anna to much at work I felt like her today deeping cleaning fran's pig pen house . Once mom's gone I will be glad never to see him again EVER ! Well thats all I have to say on this matter today . Anyway . Off to EAA Sunday night SO COOL !!!

The journey begins with me thinking of adventures I'm going to go on this summer . I won't be home sitting around this year my mind is made up already . I'm goingto go to High Cliff and do some hiking and biking . Since I hurt my knee I haven't done much but this summer I plan to do alot more . I still want to go camping in a tent just once but I haven't figured out how to get the ant's to stay the heck out of the tent . I'm sorry I don't share my part time home with ant's . I like to go hiking through the woods and I was thinking of doing that more this year also . I want to fry out on my new gas grill which was a great Christmas present . Thank You ! I plan to use it alot more this year it only got used once last year . I have so many plans for this summer and with working two jobs I hope I can get to do everything . I have work to do on my yard and I hope to get it done this year everything is geting done over again . I don't like the way my pond looks so I want to redo that and I have a trip to Aunt Barb's to make Thank You so much for saving me things . I look forward to geting stuff from you. You the best . Since I started working two jobs my schedule has been kind of full but anyone that knows me knows thats how I like it .I don't like not having anything to do and just wasting my days away .Thanks to falling on a steel grate almost two years ago I can not run anymore .If I do I take the chance of bruising my knee all over again because of the way it heeled.I can just bike its really hard to bend enough but I am pushing it I really don't miss not being a site supervisor security officer. I love my jobs now I make more than I ever did as a guard .And I've almost found me again..You know the well organized on schedule Patti that lives by her schedules and no one throws me off if they do I'm grumppy all day . Please learn to let me get my things done first then I will gladly do whatever others in my family are to lazy to do for them selfs .I hope to get mom out of the house more this year I know she has a hard time geting in and out of the truck but maybe we can get back up to that place in Green Bay where we spent the day walking around and learning alot of things . I would also like to get her to Batanical Gardens also . Well this is enough on my plans for now maybe more to come .. I know I look forward to more adventures ... LOTS MORE !!!

WOW Snow

Well another winter's day . Its so pretty to watch the new snow fall . I love to take pictures of it . And now with this much snow I can make snow angel's . I got my shovel all warmed up and ready for my hand when this snow stop's . Its a great workout to be out doing the shoveling and I love to do it . I was told last month that I may not be running for a while again this really sucks . Seen's how I was just starting to get back into it . I fell and hurt my knee back in April bruised it half way threw . Doctor says its heeling good but in a few months you may need a new knee . GREAT ! Thanks to a job I no longer seem to do my life has to change 100%  . I am geting into this new show and I've done most of my home work to get myself started in the job they do . I still have a lot of things to get before I can go out on my own but like a niece of mine its my goal a passion I love to do so I'm pushing forward and making it happen . I will have my own business soon enough no one will tell me I can't do this if it means getting a loan and buying my own truck I will do it . I was told once there is nothing you can't do if you put your mind to it and god knows when I do I get things done . So I have put my mind into geting the things I want to do done and it feels GREAT to finally say I'm doing it . So never EVER give up on your dreams do something more every day to make them come true .. Good luck !!

2 am in the Morning

Well its my journey so here goes nothing .... Its 2 am I have started this blog about 3 times tonight now . A while back I agreed to loose weight and get into shape . Its been a long hard road but I'm pushing  to meet my goals . In April I hurt my knee and I have not been able to work out like I used to I was told that I may need a new knee in a few months . But I guess you live and learn . Anyway I am geting back into working out slowly I bought a new weight machine and tread mill and I still have my bike and my mountain bike is in the shed . So I have not and will not give up this fight to be ME . I have learned that to be with the jock you have to become a jock well I was not one in school and always ended up alone not anymore I am giving it my all to be the best I can be and SCREW the man that thinks I'm not good enough for him .. I am better inside and out then any barbie doll cheerleader ever will be . You will not catch one of them sitting out in the woods in the middle of winter . But I would if it made my man happy . One of my goals is to please the man in my life and to make sure that he stays happy every day of his life granted I have to find that man that has the balls to stand up and be with me instead of geting scared off when things start to get close I don't want someone to live with just someone to be with and talk to I won't live with a man again or get married they are just not on the top of my list of things to do any time soon and should god deside to take me before I change my mind so be it I don't care . I am tired of being hurt by men and there little mind games and teasing you and telling you that your hot or they want a relationship when deep down they don't want wanything to do with you other than SEX . GROW THE HE** up people . Well I guess this is enough for now I will right more tomorrow of my boring journey in life ..

Let the journey begin

Well I almost thought today was going to be a great day man was I wrong . Thank god for a new year in one month . I found out yesterday that the guy I was seeing was also seeing someone else don't figure . Seen's how he's the one that said he didn't want a relationship or someone in his life . Because of being scared not sure of who to trust blablabla .... Easy man's way OUT! Well I say its times for a new journey a new me . I found myself once and now thanks to tons of turn down's and macho men its time to find the real me again . Its time for the 30 day's of new looks and weight to come off once again . I see the light at the end of every tunnel its just the guys that don't . I'm tired of playing men's little mind games of yes I want a relationship and oh wait can I call you tomorrow ? And that call never comes I'm tired of tomorrow and dreams that never come true . Its time to start working again at finding me the real me . I'm looking into going away for a while and desiding what to do with my life . I know I want to do deliveries and drive I hate being in this house all the time . But I also hate being alone but I guess men would rather be alone in life . Maybe thats why only a few have feelings . The others are to macho to admit when they really care for someone . Or want to be with someone . Me I say you'll wake up and reliz what you had next time you see me I won't look the same next time . But next time open your eyes and see whats right there in front of you .